[Church can't ignore his feelings. Literally, he can't. His ability to regulate anything he feels disintegrated with his sanity, with every piece of himself surgically removed.
He does not remember this. He does not remember why he feels everything so strongly, so on the surface of things. Only that he does, and that he's learned to shove a lot of those intense feelings in the direction of anger. No wonder Omega in his head felt right at home. He's spent so much time being angry because that was comfortable. Safer.
Getting his feelings out by exerting effort and strength such that he doesn't have the power to feel much will only work for a short while. It's enough for now. Because he doesn't know how he feels.
About what happened. About Washington. Everything happened so fast, and then it was over, and then he was here. Whatever he feels, he feels it a lot, but he can't do anything about it right now.
Except make a lot of noise scraping things along. Looking for another exit. Helping Wash barricade, as Wash helped him not be dismantled or stunned or whatever the fuck these things would have done. They're not enemies, they're just...
Complicated. It's always complicated. Just like Tex.]
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He does not remember this. He does not remember why he feels everything so strongly, so on the surface of things. Only that he does, and that he's learned to shove a lot of those intense feelings in the direction of anger. No wonder Omega in his head felt right at home. He's spent so much time being angry because that was comfortable. Safer.
Getting his feelings out by exerting effort and strength such that he doesn't have the power to feel much will only work for a short while. It's enough for now. Because he doesn't know how he feels.
About what happened. About Washington. Everything happened so fast, and then it was over, and then he was here. Whatever he feels, he feels it a lot, but he can't do anything about it right now.
Except make a lot of noise scraping things along. Looking for another exit. Helping Wash barricade, as Wash helped him not be dismantled or stunned or whatever the fuck these things would have done. They're not enemies, they're just...
Complicated. It's always complicated. Just like Tex.]