Why shouldn't he? That's the bottom line. Why the hell shouldn't he? If this is his last chance to remember them, he should goddamn well remember them. They would not, would never, admit or even recognize that there continue to be parts of them he finds admirable, pieces of a person that he's not sure if he should be wanting to forget at all.
Will he lose that? Will he lose the understanding of the pieces of himself that belong to another source, to the cherry-bright determination that wove itself into the strands of his soul?
Does he even deserve to?
Pressing for answers is never going to yield anything of note; Jay taught him that, if anything else. He quiets, and lets the nervous prickle in his skull quiet as well. There's nothing out there in this dream - no inherent danger lurking behind every tree trunk.
Nothing but the knowledge that one day, this will end.
"Okay." What other answer does he have? He starts to walk, as they'd earlier suggested. Stopping here and then to scratch an "x" into a tree trunk, just the same as before. Until at last he can add,"I'll keep an eye out."
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Will he lose that? Will he lose the understanding of the pieces of himself that belong to another source, to the cherry-bright determination that wove itself into the strands of his soul?
Does he even deserve to?
Pressing for answers is never going to yield anything of note; Jay taught him that, if anything else. He quiets, and lets the nervous prickle in his skull quiet as well. There's nothing out there in this dream - no inherent danger lurking behind every tree trunk.
Nothing but the knowledge that one day, this will end.
"Okay." What other answer does he have? He starts to walk, as they'd earlier suggested. Stopping here and then to scratch an "x" into a tree trunk, just the same as before. Until at last he can add,"I'll keep an eye out."