[That wasn't how anyone phrased it to him, but that's how he's internalized it: whatever gods that brought them here have a vested interest in his continued existence. He's mostly stopped laughing, but that's because the hysteria burned off and now he's just panicking.]
I just - I just wanted to stop? And I fucking did, but now I'm drowning and it's like - I can't even. I can't even end it, can I? They'll just punish me and put me right back where I started. And that's - I don't fucking want it! Take it back, you asshole!
[Somewhere in the middle, Connor stopped talking to Gabe and started just. Yelling into the void. It's fine. This is totally fine and a raft is a great place to be having a total meltdown.]
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[That wasn't how anyone phrased it to him, but that's how he's internalized it: whatever gods that brought them here have a vested interest in his continued existence. He's mostly stopped laughing, but that's because the hysteria burned off and now he's just panicking.]
I just - I just wanted to stop? And I fucking did, but now I'm drowning and it's like - I can't even. I can't even end it, can I? They'll just punish me and put me right back where I started. And that's - I don't fucking want it! Take it back, you asshole!
[Somewhere in the middle, Connor stopped talking to Gabe and started just. Yelling into the void. It's fine. This is totally fine and a raft is a great place to be having a total meltdown.]