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TEST DRIVE MEME ( 014 )
Test Drive Meme #14
Hello, and welcome to LifeAftr! We’re pleased that you’re expressing an interest in the game. Here, you can test the waters, gauge how your character may fare in the world of LifeAftr, and even gain some in-game incentives, if you so choose.
Remember that Reserves will open on August 17th, and Applications on August 24th!
Two important notes:

Remember that Reserves will open on August 17th, and Applications on August 24th!
1. LifeAftr's test drives take place on the island of Mu, which exists apart from the real world and possesses a dream-like quality that characters are innately aware of from the moment they appear on its shores. No need to panic or fret. Dreams are odd things, after all - and anything can happen in them. Why would anyone question where their mind chooses to wander in its sleep?
2. Due to the nature of Mu, threads in our test drive can not only be accepted as thread samples in your application, but can be accepted as game canon as well. In fact, certain choices your character makes in Mu have the potential to bear in-game consequences, largely in the form of test drive reward items.

One Magic Night
The waves are aglow. That might not be the first thing you notice when you wake, but it will probably draw your attention at some point: the way the sea foam glistens with an effervescent light as it rinses the beach in a crystalline, deep blue shimmer. Further out, lurid explosions of color ripple soundlessly beneath the waves - an underwater fireworks show. The atmosphere is peaceful, a blissed-out calm to suit the lazy lap of the surf-spray against the sand.

There is, naturally, all sorts to do in a celebration like this. Friendly sparring matches have sprung up along the shoreline; beach cushions and blankets decorate the party site; coconut shells laden with bioluminscent body paint can be dipped into at will, if you fancy shining like a glowstick throughout the artificial night.
Just because you've got no idea how you got here doesn't mean you can't enjoy a good party while it lasts, right?
Growing Pains
The island you've ended up on today is very, very beautiful, particularly if you're a botanist: it's covered in flowers of all sorts. They grow in rich clumps, seemingly at odds with any sense of convention. Here, you can find common dandelions flowering alongside tropical strelitzias, snowdrops spangled beside water lilies. No matter the impossibility of it, despite the discrepancies of seasons and temperatures in which these specimens should be blooming, you'll find that nearly every species can be found represented, flowering in tandem. It's gorgeous. Breathtaking, even.
There's only one problem.
That problem being that the flowers are growing out of you as well.


Lies.
Is there something you need to get off your chest? Some confession that's aching to be made? Some guilt or regret that you've repressed, that's been dragging you down for years?
Then you'd better get to it. Those flowers aren't leaving unless you spill. And if you'd rather not, well...they're more than happy to fertilize the earth with what's left of you.
Hoo Ha Ha
Stop us if you've heard this one: you and some stranger wake up on a boat. There are no landmasses in sight, and nothing as far as the eye can see but lapping waves and a peaceful, periwinkle, cloudless sky. It's good weather for sailing. Perfect, in fact. There's even a tight breeze that might helpfully guide you along.
The punchline, of course, is the fact that you're surrounded by sharks.

And they're currently trying to climb aboard; armed with four sharp-clawed legs, they're more than capable of doing exactly that unless you can fend them off.
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He rubs at his arms, trying not to tear into his own flesh with his fingernails. The buds seem to be swelling, as though coming to more maturity. He's feeling the sensations more deeply in his body, but he tries to ignore it. He gives Washington a more quizzical look.
"'How this works'?"
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He wonders if the Director can hear the bitter smirk, so uneven that it hurts the side of his mouth.
"They grow from lies. Things you don't tell other people."
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"Oh, indeed," he says, tone sarcastic. "Two sides of the same coin, I suppose you would think."
The dismissal has an immediate effect. The smallest, daintiest buds become heavier, and the others swell, ready to bloom. Leonard had given up swearing a number of years ago. He no longer deems that sort of speech necessary to get his point across. But this brings a sharp fuck to his lips. He runs his hands harshly against his skin, causing various buds to break off and fall into the water. He doesn't know if that will be enough, though. There's too much pain.
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This is going to be fucking simple, then. He's got no reason to say anything that hedges close to a lie - not to him. He has, in fact, a weighted knot of uncomfortable truths that he looks forward to tightening into a noose.
"You can tear them off, if you want." He almost sounds bored. Flat. "They grow back faster, though. And when they start to move up your face, that's when you're really in trouble."
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"What's the cure then, truth-telling?" he says. That would follow. But he hates it. His lips snarl slightly and he tears at them again, not realizing he's starting to gouge his skin with his nails.
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(Until he swapped arms for no reason, no reason at all, lodging a bullet in Wash's sternum with a pistol and not his signature weapon and the memory alone is enough to spool his heart up into his throat so he bites his cheek instead because he has been torn apart by enough memories without this being laid on top of it.)
"How about you go first?"
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Something happens inside his body that causes a knee to buckle—he goes down in the water, which now hits him at chest height. He throws his head back and groans. Plucking the buds seems to be a matter of survival now.
And so does confession.
Still, it takes a few moments, turning words over in his mind, savoring their sour taste, before he spits them out.
"I didn't mean to hurt you, Washington. I had my own goals and you were just a casualty of its failure."
WELL......YOURE NOT WRONG....
Time has dragged on, and Freelancer has fallen, and as it happens, Wash has discovered other people more deserving of his time and destructive intentions and hatred than the Director of the Project that gave him a way out, once upon a time - and that boxed him in, almost as recompense.
He wants to laugh. Something of that reckless, ruthless, humorless cut and drag bleeds through when he says, low:
"Did you mean to hurt me when you ordered the Meta to shoot me on the spot?"
He always called them by the right name.
Maine wasn't there anymore.
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Leonard props a hand on his knee and starts to stand again; the pain isn't easing, but it isn't growing worse, which is a bit of a change. The words don't make him look very good, but they are the truth, at least in its own measure. It seems to be good enough to cause things not to continue to accelerate, in any case.
"The actions of Sigma, what he'd caused Maine to do, were causing us far too much trouble. I had to find some way to draw things to a tidy close."
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The closest thing they had to an N.C.O. was a motherfucker who misallocated resources, undercut tactical decisions, and played favorites. At the time, that wasn't notable, because you'd be hard-pressed to find a military company where that wasn't the case. Unorthodox and alternative combat was the name of the game.
"That wasn't Maine." He allows himself that much: a cold snap, the slightest fracture in his composure. "Not anymore."
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At the latter sentence, he sighs. "The Meta was nothing but Sigma combined with Maine," he says. "They chose to make those actions together. Maine was the one carrying through with everything Sigma wanted."
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He stares at the Director with a force that could liquefy lead.
"You have no idea what the Meta was. You don't get to pretend that you knew a damn thing about either of them when you couldn't even tell a damn thing about Carolina."
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"You have no idea what it was to have to make those decisions," he said. "I doubt you would have done any better had it been you."
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He worked beside the hollowed-out shell of his best friend for as long as he had to, until it stopped being efficient. He rigged the bodies of old friends to explode, per fucking recovery protocol. He put a bullet in the skull of another, per his own fucked up notion of accountability.
But he can give himself this much: the dead were always just dead to him.
The only Allisons he had belonged to another man entirely.
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"'Chasing ghosts'," he echoes sarcastically. "I don't miss your subtext, you know. Doing my utmost to fix the failures of the past make me a piece of shit?"
He moves toward Washington now. The swelling buds are giving him worse pain, but he can't ignore his blinding anger.
"Failure is unacceptable," he says. "If I had stopped—"
The interesting thing about lies is someone can sometimes lie to themselves as effectively as they can lie to others. Leonard believes what he's in the middle of saying, but it is a lie nonetheless.
"—if I had stopped, it would have been worse than not continuing."
Three or four buds begin to open. Leonard lets out a cry and searches them out with his fingers and plucks them...but he ends up back on his knees.
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It never does.
"Do you still have my sidearm, Director?" he asks, quietly. "Do you still have a full mag?"
Carolina returned without it. He didn't ask where it had gone, or what she had done with it.
He didn't want to know.
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Leonard has been of a duplicitous mind for a long time. Double-minded, knowing he was doing wrong things despite his own justifications for why those things are right. He has a very clear flash of understanding—and then he clenches his eyes shut, denying it to himself.
"No," he says, not answering Washington's question. But then he parses the fact that Washington had spoken and amends: "I used it. It's not full. I shouldn't be here. Is this a dream? What is this?"
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"That's kind of a complicated question. You're not dead, if that's what you're asking." It is, technically, a dream, but he doesn't bother to clarify. There's a petty sort of vindication in that, one that he won't even pretend is anything else; he spent too many years of his life willingly laboring under a command that only offered answers to a fifth of the questions he asked, until he learned not to ask questions at all.
Let the Director flounder in insecurity and frustration for once. He's earned it.
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At this point, concentrating so hard on plucking the flowers from himself, he's going to end up losing control of his legs and sinking down and drowning.
"Oh god," he mutters, feeling like his lungs are full of toothpicks.
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Omega burned hot in his soul. One of the first pieces to break away, storming and seething. So very, very fucking close to his heart.
"I guess that would have been too easy," says Wash, and behind the golden band of his visor, he doesn't blink. "For both of us."
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With his dying final gasp, or what might be that, Leonard flings an arm toward Washington, splashing him with saltwater. And then—yes, he's down, he's done for. Leonard kicks his legs, trying to grasp one more flower stem with his fingers, but it's pointless now; he scrabbles at the flower, but it's too little, too late. He can't even drown properly, though, because he can't seem to breathe.
His final thoughts are of Allison. His endings always involve her, somehow. Maybe if this is his actual death, he'll finally get the chance to get her back.
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He watches the Director go down and waits for the knifecut of relief, of victory, of vindication.
There's only the raw, dull acknowledgment that this isn't real, and that it might not ever be real. His dreams tend to be a lot less linear than this. If he could take a guess, he'd hazard that this was the Director - or at least, his consciousness, transposed across space and time.
He watches the man suffocate and drown.
And he thinks: fine.
What he did was unforgivable. But if he remembers feeling the way that Maine must have, once, then it's worth...something.
Something is enough.